Brain dead

I think there's a real term for that. Oh yeah, it's called writer's block . I've tried to write. I've tried a lot of times in the last few months. But the words aren't coming together as I'd like them to. I've gone back to read my recent blogposts and I haven't "felt" them. I've tried non-writing related creativity too, I've done dance, art (painting, collage-making and drawing), self-made recipes. All of them have just been okay. Just okay. Nothing mind blowing or pat-on-the-shoulder worthy. And as if to confirm what I already knew, I got my first B on a term paper, (actually two term papers) this semester. I was so certain that my papers had been marked by overly strict TAs, so I requested reviews with the profs and ended up being too disappointed to ask for re-marks.

So here I am declaring brain death on myself. In the meantime, I'm in music therapy and hoping for this brain's resurrection in the very near future.

Here's my current favourite song:

                                             "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)" by Hillsong United

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

[6x]
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine